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<\/p>\n<\/p>\n
Crashing into me<\/p>\n
crushing the bones of me<\/p>\n
fire snakes through my body<\/p>\n
unrelenting and<\/p>\n
unyielding.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Where are you, Lord?<\/p>\n
Have you deserted me for ever?<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Why so downcast, O my soul?<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I have nothing left.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Into the depths of deep,<\/p>\n
the cavernous abyss of incessant and inexorable<\/p>\n
disease<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Where are you, my Lord?<\/p>\n
Have you deserted me forever?<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Yet in the deepest depths is the deepest depth<\/p>\n
the mystery of who you are<\/p>\n
waiting for me<\/p>\n
knowing me.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
You are here<\/p>\n
inhabiting my agony and spreading your arms ever wider<\/p>\n
than I could ever envisage<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
The deepest depth in the deepest depths<\/p>\n
shards of light puncture my darkness<\/p>\n
A million suns blaze through the murk<\/p>\n
and you are here.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
You left glory and sunk into depths<\/p>\n
my depths<\/p>\n
Deep calls unto deep.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Why so downcast, O my soul?<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Yet<\/p>\n
I will praise.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Crashing into me crushing the bones of me fire snakes through my body unrelenting and unyielding. Where are you, Lord? Have you deserted me…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[1],"tags":[170,114,110,171,169],"class_list":["post-357","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized","tag-agony","tag-disease","tag-pain","tag-poem","tag-suffering"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p8T2j8-5L","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":33,"url":"https:\/\/greatadventure.carterclan.me.uk\/?p=33","url_meta":{"origin":357,"position":0},"title":"Leaning","author":"liz","date":"January 15, 2013","format":false,"excerpt":"So, here it is. 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